That first year, it was just me  
and Pee Wee. Mouse helped out in the   
downtown area when she could.          
     The second year, Darryl joined us.
That was also the same year I met Beth,
and ironically enough, it was an abused
animal that brought us together.       
     Well actually, she joined me and  
not them, because even though my secret
friends knew about her, she still      
didn’t know about them.                
     My secret meeting and friends are 
the only two things that she doesn't   
know about me. She knows about every-  
thing else. What I did, the Darkness,  
my fantasies, and most importantly, my 
fear of losing control again.          
     I even told her a few of my fan-  
tasies, well, a lot really, but not the
details. I wanted to tell her those,   
* but she stopped me, “No way Jose! I      
think I’ve heard more than enough      
already.”                              
     I even told her the ones about    
her.                                   
     What bothered her the most wasn’t 
what I was thinking, but rather, what  
I’d done. That bothered her way more   
than my fantasies did. Even the ones   
about her, because she loved what I was
doing with the farm, and that seemed to
negate all that other stuff that was   
wrong with me.                         
     She fell in love with all of it at
first sight, including me, and like I  
dictated earlier, moved in a week      
later.                                 
     Nine years ago, this Halloween, I 
ran across an emergency abuse case and 
called Barry.                          



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